Thank goodness it's negative! Or should I be thankful?
= Sunday, November 9, 2008 =
And the nightmare was over!
What are the odds of living in "Swingville" and ending up pregnant? Huge, if condoms were NOT available everytime! And I must admit I was totally careless in ONE itsy bitsy time. Just ONE time! Do I deserve such a punishment?
And after stressful hours and days at work, he was my last rendezvous. Then it hit me! How come I didn't had my periods yet? I was grossed out with the thought that he will be A DAD.... what more from ME???? I was freaked out almost everyday... finding out that there aren't any blood on my undies. Wah!!!
First, I know for sure it's not my boyfriend's. Well he has his share of desaparecido en combate..... Should I be blamed of seeking "refuge" when "the urge" hits me? Don't disappear on me then, goddamit! How sure am I he's not playin around too huh? Nil.
Ok back to my "desperate attempts" to know whether I am or I'm not. I cannot go to the doc's coz he practically knows EVERYBODY in my family! So I was scared to go elsewhere too, who knows who that doctor knows! And if somebody sees me? Geesh! What a teenager I am of these things.
Dear God, it's just one time.
And so I was delayed for over a month now. And there it goes, I finally got myself a home pregnancy test. And the result.... Negative! Pfew.... Now another dilemma came to me. How accurate is this stuff? What if I am in the 1% of the 99% accuracy? And worse, how come I still got no periods? Oh my goodness! I hope I'm not sick!
Simply retouched @ 1:35 AM